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Entries for April, 2005

April 1st, 2005

Onslaught rocks. /no1

scribbled at 09:43 PM

Around 5 am today, the sound of "buttman" woke me up. i got a text message. still half asleep, i reluctantly checked my phone to see who the culprit is. i was expecting Smart's number to appear on my cellphone screen since for some reason these networks are so fond of texting their subscribers nonsense stuffs & contests in which no one really wins. so anyway, i was surprised when i realized that the message came from an unknown number. i was more shocked when i read the message: "Yeng ize.T to..Ng ol kc ung shady pro ayaw mgsalita..Pkicheck pls."  i seriously pinched myself to ensure that am not dreaming. i wasn't. then, i immediately got off the bed, ran towards our cordless & dialled ize.T's number. i asked him what time s h a d y logged in, a couple of more questions then i put the phone down, unsure of what to do next. as soon as i hung up, hundreds of thoughts jammed in my mind, each vying for attention simultaneously. the first thing i did which i thought was rational is to call Pau's cousins who own a computer shop. i was thinking of asking them to check s h a d y's equips & report as soon as possible if by any chance Pau was really hacked. unfortunately, the shop was already closed. it was 5 am for goodness' sake!! then i called mac, praying hard to the controlling forces of the universe that he's spending the night in RRD. but Mac's phone was out of reach. thank you very much Sun Cellular!! i was hopeless. i considered calling Rich & Tonton, but decided against it because i realized that at that point, no one can really help me. no one can help s h a d y.

why i didn't call Pau? i did twice. but hung-up when his dad's sleepy voice answered the phone. i didn't really know why i called him. he could not do anything anyway. his pc's busted & RRD's 2 kms away from his house. that's why i didn't bother asking his dad to wake him up. what's done is done. even if i call all Onslaught guild members, it won't change nothing.

i called Pau around 8 am. but before i did, i rehearsed for like 8 times the way ima break the news to him. turned out, i just blurted the whole thing.  as expected, he panicked. i never really confirmed what happened to s h a d y until 12 noon. so what happened to s h a d y? all his equips are still wit him. except for one: +8 GHOST formal suit. it was gone. and his zennies were all gone.  good thing poor lng si s h a d y ngaun. hahaha.

Pau was in a real bad mood the entire afternoon. well, except lang nung habang nanonood kami ng The Pacifier. then after namin manood, malungkot na naman sha. he was never genuinely happy until JR (Japs brother) texted & said he'd help Pau get his GR card back. as soon as Pau read his text, he could not sit still. he was real excited & thankful.

So anyway at this point, i personally would like to thank first and foremost ize.T (Carl) for taking some time to store my number at sumunod sa bilin ni Pau na itext ako kapag may nag log-in kay s h a d y at hindi nagsasalita. Macix who rushed his way to RRD to check on Pau and for everything else you did. i know na madami kang help na ginawa.  Thanks din sa lahat ng guildmates ni Pau for being so supportive. And of coursie, kay JR. i know you won't be able to read this but i hope this message gets to you - Thank you so much.  You don't know how much this means to Pau. And because it means a LOT to him, it mens half the world to me. So thank you. You're a good man. Actually, lahat ng members ng Onslaught mababait. That's one thing am sure of now. You guys are so lucky to have each other.

Super dee duper thanks sa lahat lahat. Happy na ulit si Pau ngaun.

shizzle nizzle

April Fool's Day

scribbled at 10:25 PM

Happy April Fool's Day world!!  But ooohh...Pau was really hacked.

shizzle nizzle

April 2nd, 2005

swimming swimming!

scribbled at 05:12 PM

weee!!! swimming kami. it's happy birthday dugs today!!  i've been ranting about the fact that i won't be able to enjoy my summer since i'd be working na nga and all. turns out, i won't be working pa pala. hahaha.  am sooo jobless. so nwei, am gonna enjoy this summer muna. gonna follow dad's advice to just relax.  <--- eto naman itsura ng mommy ko. hahaha.

double weee!! mac just came up to me and gave me chocolates. he handed me a pack of Cadbury's Caramello Koala and Toblerone. wowowow!!! i heart chocolates.  thanks thanks macix.  but you know what? my dad thinks i seriously need to tone down my chocolates and carb intake. hahaha. he said am getting really healthy!! thanks dad sa pagpapaganda ng term na tumataba!!  hahaha. tomorrow i might follow his advice but as for now, ima go enjoy eating these chocolates!!

can't wait to go swiming na. kaya lang these guys ima go swimming with are still playing DOTA kaya di pa kami makaalis. bilis bilis naman!!  weeeee.

shizzle nizzle

April 3rd, 2005

the good & not sooo good part

scribbled at 10:12 PM

Just got home. actually kanina pa kami umalis ng Pansol, like around 12 noon so mga 1 pm nasa bahay na kami ni Pau. then natulog kami then punta sa birthday bash ni Mau.  Dude, tanda mo na!! wag ka na isip bata. kaya na-OOP satin e. hahahaha.

Nwei, ung mga kasama ko pala sa swimming ay sina (naks!! naaaliw talaga ko mag-Filipino these days. db Mac?  "naatasan" hahaha.): my Pau (happy 23rd month baby!! ), Mac, Buboy (the entertainment man ), Bamster, Larry (who left the party early), Jay, Kots, Dugs (the bday boy ) & his gf Ann (who's real nice & sexy), Martin (the slam dunk boy ) & his gf Trina (super dee duper ganda ng face & voice) & Dugs' Shoti. the swimming party's hell lotsa fun. i enjoyed swimming & eating of coursie.  i also had fun playing wit Mac's hair. i made him look like Cholo (the Stairway to Heaven dude), Alfalfa, Catchupoy (is that the way to spell it? whatever.), Jose Rizal & the ever famous "bangs look" & even the "bang look" which is way funnier than the bangs look. i seriously think i can be a great hair stylist.  and Mac makes a good model.  hahaha.

Pero nde lang puro enjoy nangyari sakin dun.  Nung matutulog na kami, i found out that i hate the texture of the bed sheet, thus, my mind automatically sent signals to the rest of my systems that i cannot & will not sleep. see, I AM MAARTE. am not proud of it but i cannot deny it either. anyone who "really" knows me can attest the fact that i can actually be on Guiness as "the most maarte human being to ever walk on earth." to make things worse, i itch everytime my body touched the bed sheet. seriously. kaya tumatayo ako agad once na napahiga ako kasi ayoko mangati. it happened to me once nung umuwi ako sa province namin. some insect named "hanep" ate my legs for dinner. so i went back home to Manila full of rashes which eventually turned into ugly peklats.  So last night (it's more like kaninang madaling araw since 2 am na kami humiga) i vowed to myself that there's not a slim chance in the world that ima go sleep on that bed (sa resort sa Pansol where we stayed). I was really getting all sooo whiny and my dear baby Pau offered me some help. But i was really annoyed & irritated that every time he'd talk to me to console me or try to hug me, i'd go pick a fight wit him.  so ayun, away ko sha ng walang katapusan. buti na lang Pau knows me better than i know myself kaya di sha suko. So did i or did i not sleep? I did. hahaha. after enormous whines & rants & shouts Pau received from me, i, tired & really sleepy, finally retired to bed & hugged him. i slept well. i still felt really itchy but Pau's hugs made every itch bearable.

Next time ko na lang post ung mga pixies from our little swimming party. Di ko pa nauupload e. Onti lang naman un since cellphone lang gamit ko pangpicture.

Haaay...i think ima go rest muna. Ay, no pala because ima go do something for Pau pa. later.

shizzle nizzle

Happy 23rd Monthsary!

scribbled at 10:23 PM

For my Baby Pau & his enormous love & patience for me: Happy happy 23rd month baby!! Am awfully sorry that it slipped my mind.  inaway kita ng inaway kagabi & all you did was look me in the eye & say "Happy Monthsary." it broke my heart.  I know i've been acting sooo bitchy lately. I'm really sorry. But i want you to know that after all is said & done, in the deepest part of my heart i know, you're the man i'm spending the rest of my life wit. and the rest of my life started 23 months ago. I'm sooo sorry for breaking your heart, for making you cry, for always blaming you, for being so whiny & moody, for putting you through so much pain. Matatapos din lahat to. HOPE FLOATS!

Baby...mahal na mahal kita. Happy 23rd monthsary.

Ima fight beside you until the day i die.

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April 5th, 2005

scribbled at 03:43 PM

i just got a letter from my adopted child.  nopie, nde ako nag-ampon as in ako yung nag-aalaga and all. e nde ko nga ma-alagaan yung sarili ko. hahahaha. nag-sponsor kasi ako ng bata through World Vision. am helping him go to school by providing financial assistance. natuwa talaga ko when i read his letter to me. hand-writing niya talaga.  and he was thanking me for helping him go to school and all. sa sobrang happy ko, pinabasa ko kay mommy yung letter niya sakin. mom's happy for me too.

see, i have this thing for the less fortunate. sabi ko nga kay Pau, people in our status can regard me as a bitch but not those who are less fortunate than we are. i dunno. this may sound corny, but I LOVE less fortunate people. i feel for them. having the chance to help them transports me into an endless state of bliss. iba lang yung feeling kapag niyayakap ako ng mga bata kasi natutuwa sila sakin, nag-thathank you sila kasi dinalan ko sila ng pagkain and all that stuff.  basta nde ko rin maintindihan pero masaya talaga ko pag nakakatulong ako sa ibang tao. lalo na sa mga bata.  maybe it's because i know i have sooo much in this life. super blessed ako to have what i have and i want to share a part of it sa mga taong nahihirapan sa buhay.

my ultimate dream? i want to build my own charitable institution for children who can't afford education, a good home and in need of love & care.

as for now, ima content myself wit the fact na in my own little ways, nakakatulong ako sa ibang tao na nangangailangan ng tulong.

shizzle nizzle

disappointed.

scribbled at 11:11 PM

i was so damn excited to watch the premiere of CSI: NY. i even set the alarm on my phone just so i would not forget that today is the first ever premiere of CSI: NY on Philippine TV.  At exactly 9 PM my phone snoozed. i immediately turned on the TV, set it to AXN and impatiently waited for CSI's OBB.

To make the long story short, i turned off the TV after 20 minutes of watching. i didn't like it. i still couldn't quite figure out if the producers tried too much or too little...

I still love CSI: Las Vegas most!!

shizzle nizzle

April 7th, 2005

bummed out!!

scribbled at 07:38 PM

Am so fcukin jobless. i don't do nothing. i just burn my ass every single minute by sitting at home wondering when will these damn networks call me!!

My daily routine: Around 12 noon, dadating si Pau, we'll have lunch then makikinood kami kay Shoti ko ng ever fave niyang Barney or kay Shobe ko ng Spongebob The Movie or whatever DVD my Shobe lays her hands on. If Pau & i aren't watching, either we are sleeping or eating (our fave!!). so gawd could you just imagine how fat i am now?! then when we're already bored to death, pupunta na kami sa Max just to make tambay dun till night. Pau will play DOTA or RO (if may siege) while i go search the net, basically for nothing. Like around 9 or 10 PM, uwi na si Pau sa Laguna so babalik na ko sa condo; wait for Pau's call just so i know that he got home safe then doze off. Some days naman ako nagpupunta sa Laguna. We'll have lunch. Pau will play DOTA. Around 5 or 6 uwi kami sa bahay. tambay. tugtog ng gitara si Pau while i sing. make kwento (we never ran out of stories to share wit each other!) then uwi na ko sa Manila. Then i'll call Pau just so he knows that i got home safe then we'll call it a day.

See what am talking about?! this whole routine is beating the shite outta me! well, except the fact that i get to spend really lotsa time wit Pau. Seriously, i can go on like this forever - complaint-free, if i live in a fairytale. But despite the fact that i am a princess, i still live in the real world and this world requires me to work. READ: ima be bankrupt soon!! my wallet is thinning faster than my dad's hair and although my daddy dearie promised to continue giving me allowance until the day i receive my 1st paycheck, i still wanna go out there and earn my own money. my mom's bestfriend once told me, "mag-enjoy ka muna. wag ka muna magtrabaho. enjoy your life. enjoy your youth. mayaman naman mommy mo!" if she said that years ago, i couldn't have agreed more. But now for once, i don't wanna rely on my folks' money or even on Pau's allowance for that matter. Because just so you know, Pau & i have serious saving to do, right Be?! *winks*

I don't wanna be a bum my whole life! i wanna be productive & creative. i seriously need a job where i can invest my time & energy on and at the same time enjoy myself coz i love what am doing. so no, being a telephone operator in a call center is not one of the jobs am considering. i want not only the money that comes along wit the job. i want the thrill & the satisfaction. sadly though, i don't see that job falling on my lap anytime soon... *sighs*

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April 8th, 2005

cravingsss.

scribbled at 02:54 PM

i want a venti iced hazel nut latte! but am sooo damn poor these days. sobs. to top that, am so freaken bored too. be...san ka na?! i need to be saved.
shizzle nizzle

hotdogs

scribbled at 05:58 PM

READ: i just fried 8 jumbo hotdogs!!  it's the first time i ever fried or cooked anything my whole life. i swear. so i really found it necessary to blog it. am REALLY so proud of myself! Be, you should've been here to eat the hotdogs i fried. i mean, you can eat hotdogs anywhere, anytime BUT not the hotdogs i fried myself.  gawd am sooo happy big time!  di bale Be, ipagpiprito ulit kita next time.

weee!!!

shizzle nizzle

grammar princess. =p

scribbled at 07:30 PM

hahaha. for a moment there, i thought ima flunk this test. try it.

Master!

You are a MASTER of the English language! Huzzah. While your English is not exactly perfect, you are still more grammatically correct than just about every American. Others admire the way you speak and could learn a lot from listening to you. Still, there is always room for improvement...

How grammatically correct are you? (Revised with answer key)
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shizzle nizzle

surveeey.

scribbled at 09:28 PM

for some reason, i could not access my Friendster account or even Pau's for that matter. kaya dito na lang ako mag-susurvey. hahaha.

My name is: yengski
I may seem: maarte.
People who know me think: am maarte & sweet.
Sometimes I feel: like a superstar. hahaha. kidding.
My days are pretty: much the same ever since i graduated.
Yesterday: i just stayed home & passed the "certified bum" test.
In the morning I: what morning?!!
I like to sleep: all the time especially pag hug ako ni Pau.
If I could be doing anything right now i'd: go scuba diving (i seriously wanna be a licensed diver), parasailing, jet skiing, and the like.
Money: can't buy everything.
One thing I don’t have that I wish I did is: a white horse. seriously.
One thing I have that I wish I didn’t is: resentment.
All you need is: love and whole lotsa guts.
All I need is: right now? a job.
If I had one wish it would be: to forget.
Love is: Pau.  awwww.
If I could see one person right now it would be: Pau.
Something I want but I don’t really need is: more clothes and shoes.
I live for: myself & for true love.
I am afraid of: rats & cockroaches.
It makes me angry when: things don't go my way.
I dream about: world peace.
I daydream about: my happily-ever-after.

shizzle nizzle

April 9th, 2005

the politics of Ragnarok.

scribbled at 11:15 PM

I HOPE THE GMs OF PRO GET TO READ THIS ENTRY.

i thinks it's so damn unfair for Pau to pay 7k to get his GR back. we all know who hacked him for christ's sake! his log files were deleted. who else can do that? let me tell you what happened: some insecure players paid some REALLY corrupt GM to hack Pau. God knows how much it caused those fcuked up players to hack s h a d y. and now, another corrupt GM is asking Pau to pay 7k if he wants to get his GR card back. how fcuked up is that?

Let me get this straight Mr. CORRUPT GM: that Ghost Ring card is Pau's to begin wit. you hacked it. meaning you STOLE it from him. so why the hell should he pay for something that really belongs to him?! because in the first place, if you're not so corrupt to accept under the table jobs, that GR card would still be wit its rightful owner - s h a d y.

you guys are the game masters. players respect you. thousands of players look up to you. please try to have at least an ounce of dignity in your system. nakakahiya naman sa mga players. but i think mas nakakahiya sa soul niyo yung ginagawa niyo. i know nde lahat kayo corrupt. i still would like to believe that at least one out of ten GMs is honest and decent. sana lang nde madamay lahat ng GM sa ginagawa niyo. sayang naman kasi.

i still can't believe na ganito na pala talaga ang mga Filipinos... CORRUPT & CROOKED in many ways. tsk.

shizzle nizzle

April 10th, 2005

mawnin

scribbled at 12:58 PM

good morning world. just woke up.  have nothing much in store for me today...am just gonna edit my new blog on blogdrive. hahaha. blog addict eh winnie?  later.
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traditional sunday

scribbled at 07:18 PM

just got home from church. actually from Jollibee. after attending mass wit mom, atsi, shobe and shoti, we went straight to Jollibee. see, it's not very usual for our family to attend mass together. most of the time kasi, either atsi or i is spending the weekend away from home. today is an exception. we attended mass together and just like any typical Filipino family, we ate out afterwards. and yes, we find it necessary to eat at the traditional sunday-fast food chain in the country - Jollibee. i ate one hot fudge sundae, large fries (which i didn't really get the chance to eat since before i had the chance to, my shobe finished it all up! LOL) and large iced tea. i got a look from my mom when i ate sundae because i have colds (really bad colds for that matter). but then again, bratty little yengski always does it HER way! am sorry mom!

anyhoo, i was kinda surprise that the late Pope John Paul II was not mentioned in the mass. no prayer intentions for him, no nothing. i wonder why.

ima go edit my new blog yet again. hahaha. i could just imagine the look on winnie's face now. tata!

shizzle nizzle

April 11th, 2005

new blog is up

scribbled at 06:11 PM

my new blog is up!!  visit it some time. it's www.yengski.blogdrive.com.
shizzle nizzle

scribbled at 11:25 PM

i miss my ohhh sooo short hair. and i miss not being this fat. sobs. la lang. i was looking at my old photos kasi. gawd payat pala ko when i was 18! pero nde ako payat na payat nun. si Nhe lang un. hahaha. pero nde din ako ganito kataba. i have gained lotsa weight ever since Pau & i became a couple. kasi naman we eat big time. at first i thought it was just okay. sabi nga ni Mac, it just goes to show how much we love each other and that we're happy. kesa nga naman pumayat kami e di mukang puro kunsomisyon (did i spell it right? whatever.) lang binibigay namin sa isa't-isa (reminds me of some one i used to know LOL). but now i realized, actually, both Pau & i realized na nde pala nakakatulong samin yung pagiging mataba. kasi over taba na kami. hahaha. he's overweight and he cannot be overweight kasi may sakit sha sa puso. am sooo fat now and i cannot be fat because ummm...because i don't wanna be fat. seriously, after that realization, both of us are trying to eat less carb & fatty food. good luck. hahaha. asa pa kami. am seriously considering going swimming everyday just to burn all these carbs & fats. kaya lang ayoko mag-swimming sa Rizal for no other reason than maarte ako. enough said. so what am i gonna do now? wala. umasang papayat witout doing nothing. gawd am so fat!! wag sana to mabasa ni Rich. *bleah* as for the short hair...pag-iisipan ko muna kung talagang magpapagupit na ko ulit...as for now, eto na lang muna...

       

nde pa mashadu maikli yan. miss miss ko na talaga maikli hair. sobs.

shizzle nizzle

April 12th, 2005

so what's his sign?

scribbled at 09:03 PM

i was browsing through my old stuffs & i found a scrapbook i made 3 years ago. i browsed through it and i found something funny. gawd i was young once. hahaha. pasted on the last two pages of that scrapbook were:

WHAT'S HIS SIGN??

Aries (Mar 21-Apr 19)
Flashy, dramatic & daring, this dude's out to please, please & please. This Ram loves to hang out at the hippest, trendiest places that give both his ego and status quo a boost. Throw him a one liner like, "Great shades! Rudy Project, right?" and you'll surely hook his attention.

Taurus (Apr 20-May 20)
How do you spot a Taurus in the crowd? He's the one in the Ralph Lauren shirt, slacks and leather kicks. A real class act, the average Taurus spends his dough on items of practical use, like a decent cell phone rather than a new bike. Taurus dudes are stubborn and bull-headed (pun intended), and are ardent believers in traditional ways. So don't expect to pay your way through a dinner with a Taurus, he's sooner strip naked and join Blink 182 than have you spring for a pizza.

Gemini (May 21-Jun 20)
Scatterbrain alert! Always on the go, your Gemini guy can't wait to get things done: organizing the next school dance one minute, joining a quiz bee the next. The Gemini has a knack for absorbing information accurately-the next time you spill your phone number to the Gemini guy, you can almost be sure that he remembered it and will give you a call the next evening.

Cancer (Jun 21-Jul 22)
Finally, a dude who remembers your birthday. These crabs are sentimental, romantic, and very moody. Although Cancer dudes look aloof and detached, they can easily swoon over a well-written song. So just because he's decked out in a Limp Bizkit shirt doesn't mean he doesn't have The Corrs "Runaway" looping in his discman.

Leo (Jul 23-Aug 22)
Naturally, prom kings and team captains exude this particular star sign's attribute. Ostentatious and proud, Leos have a knack for commanding respect and making heads turn. Spotting a Leo in a party is easy: he's the guy people are gathered around, eager to hear his stories of shooting the winning basket or kissing that hot semi-pro model two batches ahead. Although Leos are affectionate and caring, they expect Freddie Prinze Jr.-worthy praises from you every minute or so.

Virgo (Aug 23-Sep 22)
If you're looking for the Virgo, scape out the bookstore. He's probably browsing between shelves or strolling in the mall alone, looking like he's window-shopping when he's actually in deep thought. Of all the zodiacs, tread carefully when talking to a Virgo. They tend to clam up when personal questions come up during the conversation. Stick to: "So what's your favorite Harry Potter book?"

Libra (Sep 23-Oct 22)
The Libran dude lives in a storybook world. He wants his Princess drop-dead gorgeous and his endings happily ever after. This guy would never let your beauty go unappreciated, and will spend the rest of the lunch break making sure you know that. He's the dewy-eyed dreamer in the back of the class, writing the name of his crush on his knuckles or carving his and her initials into a tree. Librans wear their hearts on their sleeves, so it's pretty easy to tell if he's falling for you.

Scorpio (Oct 23-Nov 22)
For every Dawson, there's a Pacey. The rebel of the zodiacs, the Scorpio guy isn't for the weak of heart. Mysterious and enigmatic, Scorpios never fail to pique the curiosity of the people around him. Whether it be just hanging out at the mall or shooting hoops, Scorpios look like they're up to something, and look so good doing it (which is why this bad boy always gets the girl).

Sagittarius (Nov 23-Dec 21)
That daydreaming dude with the uncombed hair sitting in the third row? Sagittarius. The guy-next-door whom you've caught a gazzilion times sitting on the roof looking at the stars? Sagittarius. The average Sag is always itching for an expedition or vacation, wherein the adage "anywhere but here" is most appropriate. So the next time you sign up for a hiking expedition, don't be surprised to see that half of the group is made up of Sags eager to get the show on the road!

Capricorn (Dec 22-Jan 19)
Capricorn guys run the show and won't have you saying otherwise. Behind a successful fundraiser is a harassed but happy Capricorn. Hunting down a Capricorn is easy: look for an org-spanning meeting in school, and the guy behind the podium is sure to be a Cap. Easy does it with the Capricorn ego though, insecurity is a major downer you can pull on his sensitive self-esteem.

Aquarius (Jan 20-Feb 18)
Unconventional is the Aquarian's middle name. Incense burners, lava lamps, funky shades, yoga: if it's quirky, he's got to have it. He's the Jughead Jones of the zodiac-unique and original, yet always on the prowl for a better, more enlightening experience. Scoping for an Aquarian in a crowd is like looking for Missy Elliot in a convent. He sticks out like a sore thumb, and doesn't mind it one bit.

Pisces (Feb 19-Mar 20)
During the last hour of an at-home Titanic screening where everybody grabs for the Kleenex box, the loudest sniffing you'll hear in the room belongs to the Piscean guy with his own big box of tissues. Hopelessly idealistic and emotional, pulling at the Pisces heartstrings is as easy as twirling spaghetti with a fork. Dying for a Piscean sweetie? Hang your head low, spill sob stories, and this emphatic emotion junkie will be ready to whip out the hankies and play your knight in a shining armor.


hahaha. funny no? FYI: i didn't make that whole thing. i think i got that from somewhere. i just couldn't remember where exactly. the thing is, i dunno why i posted it in my scrapbook, i didn't believe (and still don't) a thing it says. like duh. Pau is a Scorpion and not one of his cell is made up of a rebel. he's actually tamed than most guys i know. definitely not a bad boy. i have known him for years before we even became a couple. and ever since high school, i've always known Pau as the almost perfect boyfriend. seriously. and Mac is a Piscean. he's emotional alright but not in a million years will he let other people see that. and i doubt it if he even shed a single tear while watching Titanic. si Macix pa! and if you're gonna transform yourself into a drama princess in front of him, you'd receive nothing from him but a sarcastic "kamag-anak mo ba si yeng?" so that attempt to describe guys according to their zodiac signs is a failure. maybe true to some. but personally, i doubt it.

why post it here? wala lang. naaliw lang ako sa fact that i have kept such things. hahaha. un lang.

shizzle nizzle

April 14th, 2005

sick in the head

scribbled at 01:48 PM

That's me! but i haven't gone crazy. at least not YET. it's just that my migraine attacks are more often and much worse these past few months. even if i sleep the whole day, it doesn't eases the pain. eating doesn't do the trick either. even pain relievers do not relieve the pain anymore. i SERIOUSLY need to see a doctor. PROBLEM is, i dunno which doctor to go to. Would i see an opthalmologist or a neurologist? coz i don't wanna go to my opthalmologist coz witout a doubt he'd bang my head on the four corners of his clinic when he finds out that am not wearing my eyeglasses, and worse, i broke it and didn't bother to replace it. i hate wearing eyeglasses. it makes me look like a granny. now that's a BIG problem.

Yesterday, i was a certified tambay at Max as usual. Watched Ons siege and of coursie Rich commented, "naku! andito na naman tayo sa ganitong pwesto. malas na naman." then he laughed. he was pertaining to the way we're seated. me between Pau and Mac, and him on the other side of Pau. Rich believes am a jinx.  hahaha. it all started when they realized that am always the witness of Pau and Mac's failures on pc games tourneys ever since we were in high school. am also their number 1 rah rah girl!  but sadly, they always lose. always second. never the champs. but hey, they're still the champs in my heart. hahaha. sappiness alert!!  so anyhoo...that started it all. and now even JM calls me "malas."  SLASH PIF. hahaha. but hey, you guys conquered 3 agits wit me watching. that breaks the curse.  and yeah, i still believe that either one of Pau and Mac is the true jinx. they're the ones who always lose anyway. *bleah* and i have not a single balat in my body.

haaaay...i seriously need to rest. my head is killing me. would you believe that it's summer and am wearing a jacket? am sooo sick.

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stubbornship=yengski

scribbled at 08:51 PM

i recently added a new word on my dictionary, that is stubbornship meaning being like yeng. just got home from a date wit Pau. stubborn eh? i know i ranted about my being sick in the head but i just wanna be wit Pau even if my head bursts right in front of him. okay that's icky. but the thing is, no matter how my head is throbbing, my heart never felt better.

anyhoo...we watched CLOSER and i think it's nothing more than a star-studded movie. it disappointed me. it's soooo not  Julia Roberts. the movie revolved around four people endlessly betraying each other in search for true love and true happiness. in the end, neither one of them found what they're looking for. at least in my opinion. i guess it's because when you deceived someone you love, it's hard to go back to where you left off and try to act as if nothing has changed between the two you. because the truth is, everything has changed. the movie says, "if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking." i say if you believe in TRUE LOVE and found it, you'd stop looking elsewhere because you know in your heart that the whole sky (not just one star) is within your grasp.

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April 15th, 2005

early morning survey

scribbled at 09:22 AM

this is a record breaker. Magandang Umaga Bayan is still on air and am already wide awake, blogging in fact. wow. actually, i had to wake up early so that i can ask mom for money before she leaves for work. hahaha. yes, the things i'd do for money nowadays. am sooo flat broke. *sobs* anyhoo i took this survey and i was not at all surprise wit the result. winnie once told me, "you're different. you're one of the boys" and Pau used to think of me as a guy trapped in a girl's body. my titas once thought am a tomboy, and my having a boyfriend ever since i was born was just a weird twist of fate. seriously, there are only two things (except of course for the physical) that would qualify me to the "girl" category: my being ohhhh sooo maarte and my being the drama princess of the world.

let's see what the test has to say:

Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male


Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve


shizzle nizzle

April 16th, 2005

sooo lovin it.

scribbled at 12:34 AM

mom just came home. guess what she has for me? this:

me likey


it's a set of the four seasons of CSI Las Vegas of which most of the episodes i missed. four seasons. 30 DVDs. weeee!! i love CSI Las Vegas to death. am so happy!! really really happy. i could not take my hands of it. seriously. gawd am so mababaw! hahaha. ive been making my mom kulit to buy me the whole set ever since i learned that her bestfriend owns one. she always refuses to buy it because she says it's too expensive. that is until tonight. and it's not even my birthday! maybe there's a weird shifting of the universe tonight.. but whatever. am happy. weee!

anyhoo.. off to other happenings of the day. Nanlibre na naman ng lunch si Paul (as usual) but today, we're actually celebrating something - wala shang bagsak ngaung term! weee!! congrats Paul! and of coursie, we pigged-out. i could not even begin to enumerate the food we ate. they are ENORMOUS (can i use the term enormous in describing food? whatever.) it's just that i could not think of a word that would best suit the quantity of the food we ate. we ate at Friday's by the way. and seriously, ngaun lang ako naumay sa pagkain sa Friday's. i sooo love eating at Friday's. but after today, i think it would take a looong time before i set my feet again on any Friday's branch. those who celebrated wit Paul's academic success: Me, Pau, Mac, Vea, Win (Paul's current Contender) Bam, Bri and Jay (Paul's little brother) *LOL at Jay* after lunch, Be and i fetched my shobe, shoti and one of the yayas at home. we went at Max because my shobe is currently addicted to Ragnarok and my shoti because Paul loves him sooo much he bought my shoti 300-peso worth of candies. my shoti is barely 2 years old by the way. yep, 300-peso worth of candies for him from Paul. that is how Paul shows his love. hahaha. actually, gusto niya pang dagdagan yun until Jay commented, "bulok ipin ng batang yun..." then Paul told the Candy Corner lady to stop adding candies on the plastic (which was by then sooo full already). thank you very much Jay for saving my shoti's teeth.

ima go now. still won't sleep though. i think ima spend the whole night staring at my newest most precious possession. *winks* except for OUR ring of coursie. tata!
shizzle nizzle

April 17th, 2005

he simply loves me.

scribbled at 02:34 AM

there's this guy who called Pau's attention and told him, "s h a d y, takot sa gf!" he's lucky na sa Ragnarok niya yun sinabi because if he said that to Pau face to face and i happen to be there, and i swear to God i'd be there, I WILL SMACK HIS FACE TO BITS! and it won't be because nde kayang ipagtanggol ni Pau sarili niya, it's just that Pau is the kindest human being i know. i swear to God. i know he would not punch someone if not for the reason na nabastos ako or anything in that effect. but because i am a bitch, i find it an obligation to put that guy in his proper place. thus, the smacking will happen. swerte talaga niya...

the truth is, nde naman talaga under sakin si Pau. he follows my every whim because of a very simple reason: he loves me too much. i swear he'd move heaven and earth if by any chance i ask him to. i am one hell of i biatch lalo na pag galit ako. God knows how annoying and bitchy i can be when i don't get things my way. and Pau wit his patience and all the stuffs he's made of, gives in to my desires not because takot sha sakin or anything but because ayaw niya kong nakikitang nakasimangot or galit. i suspect he'd do handstands if that's the only way to amuse me. he'd even delete s h a d y for me. i once asked him, "Be, san mo ba nakukuha yung patience mo?" he simply said, "sa love ko sa'yo and basta pag dating sayo, patient talaga ko. and i don't wanna give up on you because i love you." i guess that explains it all. nde sha sumasagot sa'kin kahit parang armalite (thanks to Mac for this term) ako pag galit. he takes all the blame when things between us get sooo hard to handle. he lowers his pride and always the first to say sorry during fights. tinatawanan na lang niya ko kapag naiinis ako sa kanya ng walang dahilan during PMS or every time my mood swings (this happens a hell lot these days). but instead of aiming the fire at me, he just takes my hand and whispers how much he loves me. yes, he's always like that. he knows better than to counter my anger. so during my kasungitan marathon, nilalambing niya na lang ako. it always works. and he knows it. and most importantly, nde sha gumagawa ng mga bagay na alam niyang ikagagalit ko not because under sha sakin but because he loves me too much to hurt me. not again eh, Be?  don't worry, i believe you this time.  so there, i think i made my point clear. sana mabasa 'to nung bwisit na guy na yun. anyhoo...

i went out wit Pau and his folks today.  that's like parang tradition na namin. umaalis kami tuwing weekends (mostly Sunday) to watch a movie and to eat out. bonding.  actually, today is their post anniversary celebration. Pau and i watched Sahara. and his mom and dad watched The Pacifier. napanood na kasi namin ni Pau yun and his mom and dad already watched Sahara. thus the set-up. i didn't like Sahara by the way. so ayun, happy naman kami. dami ko nakain as usual.  sarap kasi ng Sirloin steak ng Pancake House eh. hehehe. actually, lahat naman para samin ni Pau masarap eh.

ima go now...feel really sleepy.

shizzle nizzle

life is good. :-)

scribbled at 11:05 PM

am superb bored wit my hair. am still under the decision-making phase on whether or not i would have it cut the same style back when i was a frosh in college. and since i have not decided yet, and my long straight hair is boring me to death, i styled it myself. hahaha. cut some parts of it and tada! i have bangs now. hahaha. am really proud of myself because the yayas and even atsi and mom liked it. so am pretty much contented now.

after attending mass, we went straight to the supermarket to buy shobe and shoti "baon" for their outing tomorrow. that's a La Salle outing and my mom's going of coursie and she's tagging my shobe and shoti and one yaya wit her. am just staying home because the last time i joined them, i had a stalker and was really scared because he literally followed me everywhere. so anyway...i bought lotsa snacks for me and Pau because we are the certified "bantays" of the house for two days. CSI Marathon lang kami. and i could not ask for more. except that bantay din kami nung isang yaya na maiiwan dito since mejo may problema yun eh. hehehe.

life is a breeze!

shizzle nizzle

April 18th, 2005

i, the dichi.

scribbled at 06:26 PM

i woke up really early today, say like 6 am because i wanna see my shobe and shoti before they leave for Batangas. yesterday, while we were buying their baons, i realized that am actually gonna miss my shobe and shoti. and gawd how i miss them now. sobs. ever since i graduated, i just bummed around the house and played wit them. not having them around for 2 days really makes me all glumly. i miss my shoti dancing to every song he hears. i miss my shobe making me kulit to play Ragnarok wit her. i miss my shoti playing wit Pau. i miss my shobe's weirdness. i have no one to boss around and act goofy wit. *sighs* since last night ive been telling shobe that am gonna miss her for sure. she was like, "dich, 2 days lang kami mawawala. it's not like forever!" then i told her, "bakit nde mo ba ko mamimiss?" she didn't answer me. until early this morning. she came up to me before she leaves and said, "dich, i will miss you." i just smiled. as for my shoti, he's too young to realize that he's gonna be away from home for 2 days. he did blow me a kiss before he took the lift though. then he giggled. haaays...i sooo love my shobe and shoti.

i gotta go now. ima go at Max and watch the siege. it's like a tv series i can't dare miss.

shizzle nizzle

bored to death...*sighs*

scribbled at 09:54 PM

am bored. our house is unusually quiet...*sighs* so here i
am blogging my way through one of the loneliest nights of my life.
and my wisdom tooth is giving me the pits. ouchie. ouchie. ouchie.



anyhoo...off to the happier things...i adopted this cute little thing.




I adopted a cute lil' fairy fetus
from Fetusmart!



i suppose that's it for now. later. ima go try to amuse myself.
shizzle nizzle

April 20th, 2005

lazy

scribbled at 09:04 PM

am too lazy to do anything. i dunno why am even blogging right now. actually, this would be short. just wanna share that i had fun wit Pau today. we did nothing but watch CSI. that's more than enough to make my whole day. even the entire week for that matter. sometimes it's the little things that mean the most.

OT: am, thinking of editing my template. but then again, am sooo damn lazy to decide what color would i like it to be. now, that is bad.

shizzle nizzle

April 21st, 2005

holy crap

scribbled at 06:20 PM

i cannot access my tabulas account since early this morning. every time i would log in, i'd be logged in as some other user. first it was sundae then mpd_psycho. i don't even know these people for heaven's sake! i was gonna try pa naman my new edited template. yan tuloy, i left my template all messed up. sorry sa mga nakakita. i think there was a bug or something.

anyhoo...am sooo liking my current template! it's sooo...yellow. hahaha. i like yellow. sorry kung mejo masakit sa mata; don't stare at it too long na lang. but hey, it's summer! dapat bright ang theme! and isa pa, sawa na ko sa black. Pau suggested that i should use the color pink as my background color since am trying to be a real girl. hahaha. but i don't wanna try too hard and the only shades of pink i like are hot pink and baby pink. not really appropriate for blogs i think.

ooohhh...lemme show you my baby pic *winks*


that's me! i was once a pixie princess. *LOL* seriously, i sooo love tinkerbell! i wanted Peter Pan to end up wit her than wit Wendy. hahaha.

yeah, i almost forgot, dumating na shobe and shoti ko nung Tuesday pa! weee! got someone to play wit and boss around na ulit.

later.




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where?

scribbled at 08:09 PM

where the hell is my divider? the one that's supposed to be dividing this part and that on the left side. waaah! hmmm...ima fix it later.
shizzle nizzle

April 22nd, 2005

cancer anyone?

scribbled at 11:31 PM

i think ima have a job before the month ends. am excited and sad both at the same time. excited because after a month of being nothing but a bum, ima start working na. okay, that part is not yet so sure. but the fact that ima have my first ever job interview on Monday is enough to make me giddy. sad because if i do get the job, ima see less of my dear shobe and shoti and Pau. sobs. but anyway sabi ko nga kay Pau, this is where my life is heading anyway so the sooner i deal wit it, the better. i mean, i am already a bonafide graduate since last month there's no other way for me but to join the working class. well, ima start my masteral rin at DLSU next term (yes Em, ima be a certified La Sallian by 3rd or 4th week of May. where's my welcome hug? ) but that's different. i dunno. it's not like college you know. so i still couldn't quite figure out if this whole job thingy is good for me. so what's my gonna be job? well, it's nothing biggie. ima be a writer for Big C, it's a magazine that promotes cancer awareness and all other stuffs related wit cancer. if the name doesn't ring a bell it's because bagong labas pa lang sha sa market, 3rd edition pa lang sha this month. basta it's a mag about cancer. more details: for starters, i haven't been interviewed yet. but Nhe said that ima sure hook it. she is my bestfriend by the way. she works there as an advertiser and she was the one who asked me to consider the job. turns out, her boss is looking for someone who'd be willing to write about cancer and as my bestfriend she knows that i like writing, well, that i LOVE writing, she thought i might be interested. and you bet i am. i seriously think it's a great job. being able to do what i love that is writing and at the same time learning a lot about cancer. looks kinda promising. and for one, it would be a great experience for me and since these tv networks haven't called me yet, i think i might just do it. well, i hope i do get the job. *crosses fingers* and oh...Nhe mentioned that the salary's no biggie too. but mom says it's alright. after all, it's just my first job, if i do make it that is.



shizzle nizzle

April 24th, 2005

mama

scribbled at 07:55 PM

mommy, heart, mudra, mamita, mamita donya, donya dolores, ms. taylan, lhai, tita donya, tita lhai, ate lhai, chinese heiress...whatever names we call you, this one will always and forever be my favorite - MAMA. i believe there's a profound reason why babies' first word's always "mama..."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!!! i love you to bits!

shizzle nizzle

for all these and more...

scribbled at 08:05 PM

it always surprises me how people can get so boxed up they tend to only see the mistakes of their partners and disregard their own. and i admit that every so often, i am one of those people. i go nag Pau about his being wrong - wrong choice of words, wrong decisions, wrong actions, etc. and i always have a lousy excuse as to why i commit a mistake. but once and for all, i am admitting to myself, to Pau and to everyone who get to read this that i am wrong. i am wrong. i am stubborn. i am spoiled. i am moody. i pick a fight out of nowhere just because i didn't like what you said or you did something i don't like. prolly you might be thinking that i want you to be perfect. the truth is, i just want you. i need you. i love you. i do not have a good reason as to why i always seem mad at you these days. i can blame it on the weather or on PMS or on any other external factors but i think reasons mean nothing at this point. because today, unlike the many days, weeks and months when i put all the blame on you, i am acknowledging the fact that i am not perfect. ive committed mistakes, ive hurt you. i made you cry. i know i am the world's greatest idiot. you can replace the pillow you gave me anytime you like. and i am so sorry. i know that i am always hard to understand. i know that dealing wit me needs the entire world's stock of patience. i know i am bratty and throw tantrums everywhere when i don't get things my way. i know you're runnning out of patience. and at this point, there's nothing else i can do. because as you said, i should stop making all the calls and let you be. so here i am now, doing the only thing i can do that is to say sorry again and again. prolly i am so monotonous. i am wrong Be. and i am ready to admit that anytime, because loving you is more important to me than ever being right (if only i can double-bold this statement...) i swear from this day forward, i will try to lessen my being stubborn, bratty and moody and i will stop putting your mistakes under a miscroscope and analyze them to the tiniest bits. i realized how much time and effort i wasted for always nagging you about the littlest of things. we could've spent those times loving each other more. i don't wanna waste our times and efforts forever. i simply wanna love you forever and ever.

for all these and more, i am very sorry.

shizzle nizzle

April 26th, 2005

marathon

scribbled at 12:33 AM

sinamahan ako ni Pau sa job interview ko wit Big C kanina. turned out, nde pa pala sure yung company if they would push through the new Editorial Board. funny how i felt relieved when i realized that i still won't be working. i ranted weeks because being a bum is boooring me to hell but hours before the interview, i felt confused. bigla ko na-feel na parang ayoko pang mag-work. i just wanna stay at home wit my shobe and shoti, watch CSI wit Pau and hmmm...just bum around. i still love writing, and maybe when the Editorial Board is confirmed and they considered Mau & i for the job, i'd prolly take it. but i'd be sad about that later. as of now, am really happy that i still am a certified bum! hahaha. anyhoo...okay naman ung interview, i was not at all nervous. so over all okay naman. the boss (who happens to have a huge crush on my bestfriend Nhe) said that he'd still consider Mau & i for writers if by any chance the EIC decided to push through it nga.

after the interview, Pau & i met up wit tita alita (Pau's mom) to eat out. we walked our way to Unionbank then rode a cab to Glorietta. the first thing tita alita told me when she saw me was, "wow, formal ka ngaun ah! how was the interview?" i could not blame her for being so shocked wit the way i was dressed. it was after all a very big shift from my usual baby tee slash skirt slash havaianas flip-flops or birkenstock slippers get-up. hahaha. i looked like atsi! actually, i was wearing her clothes kasi. i don't have dresses kasi for job interviews. and i don't plan to buy one. sayang lang nde ko rin gagamitin. so manghihiram na lang ako kay atsi palagi pag may interview ako. thank God for my atsi! after eating, Pau & i decided na pumunta na sa UM and since cost-cutting kami, we decided to took the bus instead of our usual cab rides. actually, we both have no idea where the hell is the bus stop so we got lost, thank you very much! i was wearing atsi's 3-inch high heeled close shoes (is that the right way to describe it?) and Pau & i walked what felt like the entire ayala ave. to me, under the scorching heat of the sun! my feet hurt like hell till now. i was like really naiinis na kay Pau kasi he told me that we were on the right track, un pala sa kabilang dulo pa ng ayala ave. yung sakayan. uber sakit talaga ng paa ko! am a flip-flops girl what can i say? i was like really pissed. i get really bitchy pa naman when the weather is hot. BUT instead of aiming the fire out Pau (kasi nga am trying my best not to be mad at him because of the littlest things) i just tried to think of the positive side of our little expedition. i figured out from the way he looked na ineexpect niya na magagalit ako at aawayin siya so he was really surprised when i took his hand and said, "at least Be nakapaglakad tayo sa kahabaan ng Makati. kasi lagi na lang tayong naka-kotse or naka-cab." then i smiled up at him. i felt good when he smiled back! i could not be more proud of myself! hahaha. kasi nagawa ko pa ring mag-isip ng tama kahit init na init na ko. usually kasi pag naiinitan na ko, wala na ko pakialam e. then nung nakasakay na kami sa bus after what felt like eternity to me, pinagtawanan na lang namin yung kamalasan namin. kasi we learned from one of the dispatchers na sa hinaba-haba ng nilakad namin to get to the bus stop, wala na palang biyaheng derechong La Salle. so we rode a different bus na lang. sucky sucky sucky. pero ayos lang at least ngayon alam na namin na till 3 lang pala dumadaan sa La Salle yung bus na yun. but then again knowing that fact is meaningless now because i bet my life there's no way in the world that we will ever again ride a bus from Glorietta to Taft! hahaha. so there, happy talaga ko today. mababaw lang talaga ko!

haaaysss...my feet's still a sore. even after i dipped it in warm water for hours and even after an hour length of massage from the yaya. uber uber ouchie! sooobs. i swear to God it would take whole lotsa Belgian chocs for someone to convince me into wearing any high-heeled close shoes again!!

speaking of Belgian chocs, Pau & i bought Swiss white chocs from Marks & Spencer. awesome! yeah, that's the right term for it.

onga pala, kahapon ko lang nalaman na may blog feature na pala ang Friendster. yeah i know history na yun. but it's news to me! hahaha. i was from the planet Mars you know! nde na kasi ako nag-oopen ng Friendster account ko e. or if ever i will, am just checking it for messages or friend requests. then log out agad. buti kahapon i took time to browse my account. hehehe. welcome back to earth yeng!