prinsesa.

October 1st, 2005

bits of everything

scribbled at 08:44 AM

My atsi's boyfriend came home from Malaysia. Nakakatuwa kasi ginawa niyang parang Baguio yung Malaysia. He arrived last night and he's leaving on Sunday. O diba angas niya?! Umuwi lang for the weekend! Hahahaha! Ohhh. He bought me an uber cute Mango bag!

I watched the movie "The Perfect Catch" wit Pau. And he's right... That's the story of us! He's right indeed. Hehehe.

Someone's been viewing my Friendster profile. It's funny really. All the while that person is claiming that I am the one who should get over it, when in fact, the one spying ain't me. Dear Lord!

I am beginning to enjoy my job.

And the most important news: I am back to my old self! Thank you very much for holding on.

I'm listening to: I'm Real - sooo... Allan! =p

My Craving:

shizzle nizzle

September 22nd, 2005

5 am

scribbled at 06:37 PM

It was 5 AM...

and I was lonely.

It was not like hell though.

It was worse.

And no, I didn't pick a fight wit Pau. But half of me died.

I'm listening to: my slow heartbeat. =(
I'm feeling: melancholic
My Craving:

2 shizzle(s)

September 18th, 2005

to the moon and back

scribbled at 12:43 PM

Miss na miss ko na blog ko!! Sooobs. I've been very busy with work these past weeks kaya di na ko makapag log-in dito. Totoo pala na pag nagwork ka, you'd rarely have time to do anything else. May m.a. pa ko kaya hirap super! Hindi na nga kami nagkikita ni Pau eh. Super miss ko siya kasi before every minute of the day kami magkasama, then ngayon once or twice a week na lang and not more than 3 hours pa kami magkasama. Huhuhu. But I know we'll work things out. Though hindi kami sanay sa ganitong set-up, I'm certain we'll pull through. Next week Pau's gonna be busy with school so he won't feel as lonely and bored na. Hehe.

So anyway, here are some blog-worthy kwentos:

My bestfriend Nhe got married last Tuesday! Weee!

My colleagues are all "kolehiyalas" (3 Paulinians, a Scholastican and an Assumptionista) so we basically get along very well since we understand where each other is coming from. Go figure! Well yeah, maaarte kami lahat BUT we can back it up! *flips hair*

I went out with my colleagues and their bfs last Friday night. Shempre I was wit Pau din! We ate at this bar slash resto called BG's and their service sucks! The manager of this resto is an asshole too. So anyway, the place is filled with yuppies breaking out from the stressful week's work. I felt old. Yikes!

After like a month or so, nanood na ulit kami ni Pau ng movie (last Friday din)! Nice super! Though hindi mashado maganda yung pinanood namin (Red Eye), being beside Pau the whole time and holding his hand is more than enough.

Sad ako kasi hindi ako makakapagsiege (sa Ragnarok) every Saturday kasi conflict sa classes ko. Soobs. So now, I am training my shobe so she can play for me every Saturday! She's a good priestess but a lousy dancer. Sighs.

Happy ako sa Ragnarok life ko! Haha! I have this pretty priestess (level 93) and uber sexy dancer (level 98) superb cute na bs (level 80 or 81? haha!), huntress na kahit isang taon ng level 87 cute na cute pa din! At isang novice na 4 levels na lang cute na cute na super novice na! Kahit hindi kayo nakakarelate, maging happy na din kayo! Haha!

Kagabi (until kanina) nasa birthday bash ako ni JR wit Pau, Rich, Larry, Richie, Japs, Jops and some other Onslaught members. And shempre sa Greenhills ulit siya ginawa and as usual, mausok at madaming tao. Then again, birthday naman yun ni JR so carry ko. Hehe. Happy birthday JR!

Sa bahay natulog si Pau! I mean dito sa condo namin. Happy happy!

My sched next week is jammed with meetings with clients. Kinakabahan ako super! 1st time ko magpepresent sa harap ng client on Monday! I'm meeting up with I.T.E.M's marketing manager. Yikes! But I know I'll get used to the job. Yayaman ako sa trabaho ko (hopefully!). I'm an account executive of an ad agency cum pr agency cum publisher of Health and Lifestyle magazine.

Gotta scoot now! Still need to do some research.

I'm listening to: Sorry 2004

My Craving:

shizzle nizzle

September 7th, 2005

i am on a diet! :-P

scribbled at 12:11 AM

I was surfing my friends' list on Friendster and I noticed that my friends who used to be way more plump than me are now very curvy. Then it hit me: AKO NA LANG BA ANG HINDI NAG-DIDIET SA MUNDO?! Well. Si Pau din pala. Hehe. But there are moments when he would seriously consider going on a diet. And I would just look at him like he's gone insane. I have never really tried any diet regimen my entire life. And at this point in my life, I still don't intend to. Masaya kaya kumain ng madami! Haha! And I just don't care about what other people would say about me. Kahit na sabihin pa ni Larry at ni Richie na super takaw ko. Haha! I dunno. Prolly I am just not the superficial kind of person. Not that I am saying that those who are on a diet are superficial. It's just that, I know I am waay more than what I look on the outside. It does not matter if I weigh a hundred pounds. It's who I am inside that matters. It is what I do that defines me. Sabi ni Batman yun! Hehe. I am not saying that I plan to be obese. All I'm saying is that though I am a bit plump, I still won't starve myself to look more "pleasing" to other people. This is who I am. So deal wit it! *flips hair*

So kumain tayong lahat ng marami! Except sa mga nag-didiet. Cheers to all those who know better.

My Craving:

shizzle nizzle

September 5th, 2005

i am growing up...

scribbled at 10:13 PM

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your bestfriend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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OT: 3.0 ako sa parehong subjects ko this term. That's according to my mom. I was like, "happy ka na dun Ma?" She was like, "dapat 4!" wanted to faint. But I promised her that I will give her a grade of 4.0 next time. Hehe. Good luck sakin. Grad school is just... DIFFERENT!

I'm watching: never ending NEWS about GMA...
I'm feeling: contemplative
My Craving:

3 shizzle(s)

September 3rd, 2005

next to you...

scribbled at 10:35 PM

Nothing beats waking up next to you.

Happy 28th month!

My Craving:

3 shizzle(s)

September 1st, 2005

wedding bells

scribbled at 06:45 PM

*beep beep*

1 message received

"dude, msta kna?..Ü ask nmn s mom mo kung malas o swerte ung #13.. s sept 13 kse kme ika2sal s civil.. mom mo una kng naisip kse mahilig un s feng shui eh.. hehe..Ü"

I was shocked. That message came from my bestfriend Nhe. She's getting married! O-M-G! I am sooo happy for her. She's like 5 or 6 months pregnant now and she's getting married. I am proud that she made two good decisions - she kept her baby and she's gonna marry! Saya! But hindi kami pwede ni Mau sa 13 kasi may work kami pareho so sa 11 kami punta sa Pampanga (dun na siya stay together wit his fiance's family!). Excited na ko!

OT: Sabi ng boss ko totoo daw may alien sa earth! At meron din daw guardians na nagpoprotect satin. He told us stories that prove the existence of guardians and aliens. My jaw dropped. As in!

I'm feeling: peaceful
My Craving:

shizzle nizzle

August 30th, 2005

lolo

scribbled at 11:57 PM

Pau's lolo passed away today after a long, bitter struggle with cancer. And although, technically speaking, he's not really my lolo, I feel the pain and the loss. I have always loved lolo like my own. I just didn't tell him, because I didn't know how to approach him. He was always the quiet, reserved, man-of-few-words kind of guy (just like the rest of the Ambayec clan). Most of the time he'd just silently and peacefully sit on his monobloc chair, smoking while watching the whole world pass him by. That was how he lived ever since lola died. His face always looked monotonous but I'd catch a hint of happiness in his eyes whenever one of his apo would drop by their ancestral home to pay him a visit. I love seeing lolo everytime I pass by that ancestral house. I especially love it most when he'd talk to me. The first time he acknowledged my presence by saying "kumain ka na?", I felt giddy. And by that small little way, I felt his love. And ever since then, he'd smile at me everytime Pau and I would go and visit him.

Lolo is the only grandpa I have ever really known. My mom's dad died when I was six. And although stories from relatives would always conclude that I was a lolo's girl, I was too young then to carry vivid memories of him with me. My dad's dad is still alive. But he was just never there. And although I try, I just could not feel that certain "lolo-apo" connection with him.

But I felt that connection with Pau's lolo. His smiles meant a lot to me more than he will ever know. His simple sentences are forever kept and sealed in my heart.

I will forever remember lolo as the strong man who sits around all afternoon and smiles when he sees his apos approaching.

I know lolo knows that I love him. I just wish I held his hand even once.

We lost a good soul on earth but gained an angel in heaven.

P.S. I am relieved to know that he is already free from his pain and suffering. But I feel sorry for us whom he left wishing and hoping that we could still hug him and spend more time with him.

I'm feeling: melancholy
My Craving:

2 shizzle(s)

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